Thursday, January 13, 2011

Bucky Update - Decisions


Bucky is fifteen years and two months old. He started "getting old" when he was about nine, when he turned into an off-track-bowling-ball on walks. But he never lost his mental sharpness and appetite for food and attention. He injured a disc in his neck when he was ten, so we started carrying him up and down the stairs. He had pancreatitis in June 2009, so we started cooking for him. Winter has been hard on him in the last few years, and we know it'd be a challenge for him to pull through this one. In the past few days he's have more and more difficulty standing up. He has almost no muscle tone left in the hind quarters, so sometimes he topples over. He has no control or awareness of his eliminations. We clean the floors A LOT.


The end of life question is looming. Trinket passed away suddenly, and spared us the most difficult decision. In the ancient days dogs would go off to the woods when the time came. Sometimes I wish we are living in the ancient days, but that would be irresponsible of me, to escape the decision making. 


When is it ever a good time to play God? Does Bucky gain a few extra days in his life because we can't manage to squeeze in another vet appointment between music, sports, Chinese lessons, movie dates? Or are we simply tired of the care-giving and need an excuse to end our suffering? I've always thought we are among the most responsible dog parents, but are we going to live up to our own standard?

5 comments:

Tina. said...

Something that we may all have to face one day...and a very difficult decision to be sure. One thing I do know without a doubt is that Bucky has had a long life with excellent care and loving people around him. Praying for you in this difficult decision and time.

Nichole said...

Hugs to you... such a difficult decision to make. Sending good vibes.....

Sue said...

I know you'll make the right decision, no matter how painful. It's all a part of loving him.
Sue

Lynn said...

I swear this is the hardest part of pet ownership. I'm all abt the quality of life. Plus while you've gotten used to dealing with Bucky, now that you have Rascal, you are probably seeing more of Bucky's failings. Hard to face when you love that guy so much. Hugs and good wishes for you during this difficult decision. And you ARE good pet owners. Otherwise Bucky and Trinket wouldn't have lasted so long.

Carol said...

So sorry to hear about Bucky - your post was very touching.